May 2013
25 posts
Deep
I thought I could handle this boy, but I think I’m way over my head with him. I am always in the unknown and it saddens me when I don’t see it coming.
I am deeper than I think. He is smarter than me and I keep forgetting how smart he actually is.
I don’t like this. I want it to change. I’m not going to end it but I have to be more aware of what I say and do.
He is...
Toned Up
Now that everyone at university has left or are leaving soon. Me and my friend are now going to train to get our holiday bodies up to point. So healthy eating it is now, buying gym clothes and equipment, evening runs and trying our best to be the upmost healthiest that we can. So I am excited for the the exercising to begin and to get the body that i want.
Home
I am at home just chilling, i am so happy to be at home once. Away from the drama and stress that comes with university. When I am at home I feel more at ease and zoned out, because of the constant prayer and feeling of God around so it makes me feel good.
When I am at university all I tend to do is to worry about work and how i will fail and how everyone will be mad and upset at me. i just...
Surroundings
It is worrying me how quick life is and how quick things are to come and go and to end. I think I need to value people in my life and appreciate everyone so they don’t slip away. I want everyone that is important to me to know I care for them greatly. They have shaped me and influenced me and I live them for that.
April 2013
26 posts
Updates
Alot has happened since we last spoke, alot considering relationships and university and work. New developments has caused me to analyse my life and see what is wrong with me as a individual, and I have learnt a few things about me. Most that I am not proud of.
My love life has been more vibrant lately, I think I am ‘seeing’ someone I am not sure about the labels and terms at the...
6.4.2013 2.39AM
I am meant to be back at university in literally a day and a half and I feel like I am not going. I don’t know why. When I am back at university I just want to focus on work and I might get a tattoo. I’ve been feeling to get a tattoo for a while now and one of my friends want one too so it will be nice to go with her and get it. I just want a heart; a small heart I don’t know...
Coming to an End
The easter holidays are coming to an end. Errands have to be done and i will be Getting my hair done tomorrow and my nails done. It just reminds me that I am going back to university. I don’t want to go. Please don’t make me.
1AM, 4.4.2013
I am quiet excited about my new hairstyle and at the same time I am quiet scared. I don’t want to look ugly, it is something I always wanted to do. When I change my hairstyle I always think of a new look it can go with. Like re- inviting myself all the time, it is fun and it keeps things interesting I guess. Also I am going to university in 3 days! I really don’t want to go back and I...
